My love for a genre and hate for the convention
I have for as long as I remember been a music lover, I popped the cassettes of Beatles , Elvis and zeppelin in from age 5 and have kept on going finding new music ever since. When I was 13 I jumped into the sub culture of punk music laying my love over bands as the ramones, pistols , dead Kennedy’s and Ebba Grøn. It should later on lead me in the wonderful world of hiphop. I loved sitting at home listening to meaningful lyrics and political statements and I guess that was the main tithing leading me away from punk and over to rap. I wanted more poetry, I wanted more focus on the words and I wanted to be served images. I guess this is why I at the same time was listening to Genesis, Elo, Eels and Pink Floymy behind closed doors, cause I could not share that music with my culture right?
But even though I loved the music, the genre of music, the dirty ness of the sub culture, I never ever felt connected to the group of people that should be my fellow music heads, I have always felt like the odd man out, not living the culture, not expressing the culture in the way I should have, neither with rap or punk music, I basically just loved the music I listened to. Yes I do wear baggy jeans every now and then and love my hoodies, but it kind of stops there, that narrow minded way of being, of the accepted realness or the accepted music just did not apply, and believe me I tried…….Hard. This was tormenting me in the beginning and for a long time as well, trying so hard to fit in, and fit my music into this conformed way of thinking and made me make music I did not enjoy listening to myself and could not stand for anymore. Here I had so much baggage with me musically and had chosen to use only this narrow way of making music, the dry sound and just a drum, a piano line and some snares, I wanted got make music!
i have used the last two years of setting myself free, it is the musical expression of rap I like not what sorrounds it, I just love music to much to keep it that way. I have reached the point where music is me and I am the music I make and hopefully someone will like it too, I don’t make it to please someone, I make it to please the ONES. And that to me is freedom.
Hope you have enjoyed this little read and here is the ultimate result of that for me